It has been a while..

i feel old re reading all this

its a sine!

mia's new album is being produced by diplo, features collaborations with sleigh bells and rusko; and is rumored to sound like animal collective (new i assume)? what? that is cool of you mia to take whoever is on top of the current most popular genres and mixing them into one block of what i predict to be mangled and busy noise.. ya it has never been done before i bet right, besides every fallen star attempting to remain relevant. but mia is still popular i thought?
lately i have noticed the only thing able to quench-my-musical-thirst is a strong pulse / heavy bass line.. ex old deerhunter, circle takes the square, n harder stylesz. i pray no one can hear the music playing on my earbudz as i work diligently in school

the other day catlin and i took the 24 ogden ALL the way to the industrial wastelands of calgary. there were no people or cars just 9000 gigantic rectangular beige buildings and a handfull of smokestacksz here n there. we were headed to the humane society to pick up the kitten catlin had requested to adopt. the kitten carl, (either simon or russel now), was the most beautiful russian leopard grey and black and white snow tiger i have ever seen and makes me so depressed i dont have one.. i wish my mom wasnt allergic to all animal dandruff basically??

everytime i watch vids of carl sagans speeches, or episodes of cosmos, i get so down that he is dead. it is such a loss, a unique thinking man with the earnest desire to spread knowledge and ideas deserved much more. he had a lot left to contribute UHGhrlgkjef "In order to make an apple pie from scratch, you must first create the universe. " "The cosmos is also within us.. were made of star stuff.. we are a way for the cosmos to know itself" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSgiXGELjbc&feature=player_embedded <--- carl how were u so cool

i went for a run today with erin ahaha who am i. after digging up my old kangaroo-leather soccer shoes we embarked on a half hour adventure.. good time and i am actually somewhat tired for once in my life eh maybe i will go more often

interview at the ruins

something cool almost happened to me for once,
i was so close, i could envision it so clearly
w/e lol i didnt think it would work out anywayz

seeing as how i have been 8 different people in my life so far i wonder if i am who i will be yet? i cannot even decide if this would be a good or bad thing

write me back university please am i conditionally accepted or what!?

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atlantis

the powerlines by my house sound cool when its misty
like aliens or something metallic

dana made me chocomint vday cookies. her and i ate a&w twice in 6 hours, i have coupons what of it.. i think more burger joints should start using whole cut rings of onion on their burgers as opposed to that shredded pickled shit utilized by mcdonalds

i think sometimes that i have missed out on certain moments and memories someone my age should have. ive never had a real best friend 'aka' known any of my friends for more than a couple years, ive never gone camping or had a cute hIgHscHOoL relationship ETCETERA
but then i remember that i could caaaare less and the previous momentary lapse was just a reflection of the lives of the rest of the world. whatever floats ur boat


last of the mohicans

please stand up

I anticipated the grade 12 retreat would be a lot worse that it actually was. There were no bullshit false nostalgia instilling activities, no cheesy life lessons, and most importantly no interacting with people I do not know or care to know. (Ha ha I am so social, looking forward to seeing how I will make out next year going to school in a foreign land?).
Instead we just sat and listened to a motivational speaker who talked for hours about how he overcame meningitis, mentored Hilary Swank, and was the first person to run the Great Wall of China/ I thought he was an ok guy and pretty interesting, did not feel like 3 hours to me.
...Later today Joey sends me a link to the website of a man who was very similar to our speaker... Among various other similarities, he was also claiming to be the first man to run the Great Wall, they both raised money for cleft palate surgeries and O YA, they have the same name , but are CLEARLY not the same person?!! As I dig deeper through this very professionally done site I realize that our speaker had shown us pictures this guy had uploaded? huh? Did my school hire a conman who just read the real David Grier's book, (ya hes publishedDdD ... So who am I putting my money on actually exists as who they say they are?)?

WhAT
IS
THIS

I don't know anyone in Victoria, but I am more than down with 50hours-of-sunlight Decembers!? Keeping in touch with people is going to be a chore and I probably won't after a while, I will try to see everyone when I come back for Summer I guess. I know I shouldn't count my chickens before they hatch but whatever. It will kind of be cool not knowing anyone.. I can go for walks by myself and listen to music and never stop and chat?

no one on earth knows me liike u do

I am proud of myself.. I am sticking2something
I feel moth like weeoeoeooweo
I wish people would interact the way I want them to interact

The futures friendly, I am looking forward to wading deeper into its waters

sleep is counter-productive
i dont need attention span aaaahhhhhhhh

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I I I I i am so self centred

Dendrite Dandelions

Have you ever been wrongly accused - I mean, have you ever been presented with the notion that you may have done something which you're sure you haven't? Did this notion, as dense and dry as you may have thought it to be, plant a tiny seed in the back-of-your-head?
Perhaps / Possibly / Maybe you know what I am preaching about? Yes?
Did you feel the pressure when the seed took root in the doubt lining the underbrush of your cerebrum? Sprouting like tree roots ascending the surface of city streets and sidewalks, into the fresh air sunlight of conscious thought? Fertilized by your own insecurities and self-confidence short-comings, blossoming into false(?) realizations and actualization? Second, third, fourth guessing whether your neurons were accurately firing pre or post impregnation? Now or before? You can't have your cake and eat it too..

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Not me, I can. I'm not like the rest of them! I know what I am. My mind is hard and sturdy, branching out into broad beauty and brilliance. You can not just pluck me out of the ground, I've dug-down-deep.

Ignore the blatant over exaggeration of my own self assurance.
Whats with all these question marks, who put these here? Goddammit.